Who cares?

You ever want that heart warming feeling? That hug that takes away your pain? That message that lets you know you are not alone. Some reassurance that everything is going to be okay? 

Instead your stuck alone, sad, eyes full of tears and you just sit there and wonder why.. why you?

That is me. I really feel so alone right now. I don't have any family to turn too. I don't have family. I have been on my own since I was 17. Lived alone. I see my friends they all have family to turn to. Not me. My family didn't want me. So they left me. ALONE.

Does prayers really make you feel better? If someone could put me in theirs. Id appreciate it.

Been awhile

Lets begin with what has been going on...

1) Im officially UNEMPLOYED and miserable. I was laid off thanks to this economy. If I was depressed before this... I have officially hit rock bottom. I have been applying EVERYWHERE and literally i haven't heard back or I got the "we are currently on a hiring freeze." I can't deal I'm starting to panic. I have savings but its been about 5 weeks so far and all money is going to rent, food, bills...

2) I have been on a smoothie diet. Lost 17 pounds in 2 months. Make sure my protein is in there. Its a lot cheaper and quicker then sitting there and making a full meal. Plus since I'm in such a financial crisis this is all i'm left with. I wonder what its like to never have to work a day in your life. 

3) This weather is making me even more depressed. Its always rainy, cloudy, snowy, cold. SUCKS
Hurricane Sandy, Snowstorm Nemo, I barely see the sun EVER. So upsetting. 

4) My heart is breaking. The person i love the most is the one who hurts me the most. I know he lies to me i know that theres a lot of things he isnt telling me. We are falling apart but yet neither of us say anything to change it. He has me last on his list and i believe that is the problem. I would drop what i'm doing and run to him if he wants to do something. Him on the other hand.. Friends first, then work, and then his nonsense then me. If he has time for me then he will call. I need some advice on this!!

I need some boosters. Please send me some feedback, advice, positive energy, and a smile!!! 

Dating Sites!!??!

OK so everyone must have heard of the show +MTV Catfish right? I take it that most of these "daters" are being played by someone pretending to be someone else. But yet there is always tons of commercials on TV for more dating sites. Now they go by race AND religion.. come on now.  

+ChristianMingle 
+Muslima 
+Chemistry.com 
+PlentyOffish 
+BlackPeopleMeet Brand 

All these sites... how can you tell if people are real ... OR FAKE..

We all know someone who made a fake +Facebook+ /+Myspace /+AOL   to either try to talk to someone or cover up who they are and pretend to be their alter ego... or just who they wish they could be. They steal pictures from all over the Internet. And go hard and keeping these fake profiles going. 

But what happens when people fall in love with these online profiles?

Someone explain to me how these relationships work and why are they better than meeting people in person and coffee shops and parties and bars and such? Do these sights really work. Are they really successful? Do people meet the person they are looking for? 

I for one like the old fashion way of meeting people. NOT ONLINE. And i grew up in this computer age. I cant even handle having +Facebook+ friends that i no longer speak to on my profile. +Twitter  .. cant handle random strangers following me. Whats the point? You don't really know if these people are real. Plus do you reallllly want someone knowing what your doing all day long?